Dear John...

I thought you were sweet!
Delicious like hard boiled candy…
The other “s” you were not.
I had hoped you would grow into it.
But now I realize you’re but an island in “us”

When days go by and all I hear is silence,
When I tell you its not done,
You blank out and then say “okay”
Its as though ive been talking to a chalk board.
You don’t get me!

Sensitive is not you
How can you say you love someone,
And not understand anything about them?
What page am I on that you don’t get?
I realize now that,
We are in different books.
Books parallel never to be understood.
Your idea of love isn’t the same as mine.
You think being physical is love
I think that being there when needed is love.


Our Bank account is empty babe.
I gave, and gave. You took, and took.
Until there was nothing left
Now you’re ready to give,
It’s nothing but a sole account.

They say women enjoy being treated like trash.
It is not the truth.
It’s the God in us who gives us the strength,
To thrive,
To forgive,
To go back to taking the shit men do us.

Im no feminist, but now I understand,
Sweetness is the reason I love you,
Sensitivity, or  hope of sensitivity is the reason I stick with you.
Sensitivity is what I want from you,
I will get none from you,
Now that is the reason I despise you.

Why?

Why do people we perceive as having everything, not have everything?
Why do people not cherish what they have?
Why do we get into relationships, do something wrong, lose the one you thought was so good for you?
Why do we spend so much time perfecting or act,modifying ourselves, our behaviour?
Why do we bother with all these things for fear of losing a new person?
Why is it that no matter how hard we try, we can never please everyone?
Why is it that for some reason, when you're in a fresh commitment, there is always a comparison to the former commitments?
Why can they not love you the way they met you?
Why do we throw the words "I Love You" around so randomly?
Why do we fail to recognize the existence of the words "Affection" or "Infatuation" or "Obsession"?
Why do people in love or people obsessed with each other fail to see their faults and incompatibility?
Why do people choose to pass blame around instead of accepting their faults and flaws?
Why do people fail to see that love is indeed, FREE?
Why do people attach a price to love?
Why is it said that love is an emotion completely surrounded by expenses?
Why do people think it is just as easy to fall in Love as it is to fall out of love?

The truth of it all, is that when it comes to love,
its either you remain in love,
or you were never in love.
CandyTee